Alright, so my ex g-friend ims me today and we start talking about how things are going for her in Portland and so on. And then she brings up this idea about a threesome. I'm all like "Whatever, hee hee". Then she did it. She told me. She told me something that I will probably never get out of my mind forever. She slept with JP (JP is a chic). She slept with her while her and I were together, somewhat, when she came home for Christmas while she was on break from basic training. WTF? That's why I don't trust people that I love. That's it. That fucking does it. I will never trust anyone again. There's only two people in this whole world that you just don't fuck with me about. That's her and David. You just don't do it. This girl, JP, slept with David (him and I were not together at the time) and David was like at my house the next day crying telling me that he slept with JP. Now, I hear that my ex and Jp hooked up. At least David had the balls to tell me the next day. My ex told me years later. Fuck dood, first she shows up like two weeks before I get married to tell me that she wants me to leave Stephen for her and then she tells me about JP years later. I don't get it. I just don't get it. What have I done? What do I do? She'll be here in like less than a month and this is where we stand. Me not trusting her again. It took me years to trust her. It tooks me years to "be" with her. But it took me seconds to fall in love with her and this is where it stands. Back to square one. I love this girl, with everything in me. I can't imagine my life without her. But now what? I'm just having a serious case of the ventings right now. LOL It actually isn't that funny, but I'm hoping that maybe I'll find soem humor in this. But starting today, no more. No more trust, no matter who or what. No matter what...